Wednesday, April 1, 2009,8:29 PM
i went to the doc on tues...n e doc told mi tt mi baby stopped growin at 2 months old...theres no heartbeat...i lost my baby...
i don koe y it ended up like tt...but when both mi n dear dear were so lookin forward to becomin parents...i had to put an end to this joy n told him tt i lost our baby...
e doctor say tt its most likely due to our baby bein unhealthy...but i still felt tt if i were healthier..i probably wouldn't be here writin abt this now...
i went to the hospital yesterdae to double check again...n went thru e op for the necessary procedures...e thought tt b4 e op i had someone with mi inside mi tummy but aft e op...i felt all of a sudden tt i m all alone again...op ended late n so i had no choice but to stay overnight there last nite...
dear dear cannot stay with mi n so i plea n plea everyone so tt i can go back home yesterdae nite..but every1 opposed to it...no1 knew y i didnt wan to stay there all alone...
every1 say tt we r still young...make myself healthy again n we can try again....but e thought tt i went into the hospital but instead of havin mi baby born i had to lose e baby hurts terribly...i looked forward to my baby growin everydae n i look forward to the birth of my baby...
but e doc had to tell mi tt i m baby has no heartbeat anymore....i m scared...so scared of losin again...
i felt guilty...i could have stayed healthy n brought this baby to the world n witness e change in the world...witness the 2010 youth olympic in singapore...witness the aunt's weddin in dec....but cos of mi....e baby missed everythin...lost the chance to c all this....
i miss my baby...
