Tuesday, April 7, 2009,7:51 PM
on e no.8 day tt i lost my baby...
i thought abt somethings again last nite...somethings are easily forgotten but apparently some are not...after tryin to make myself busy with packin my room yesterdae for some make over so i can forget abt being alone cos darlin had to go back to work after accompanin mi for so many daes...i still cant help but think abt wat happened...i know i should learn to let go but things jus doesnt seem to be tt easy...
lyin on e bed as i watched darlin fallin asleeep aft he came back from work...i thought how wonderful it would be if baby was here with us...
exactly this dae 2 weeks ago...we would say goodnite to each other...n then goodnite to baby...
but exactly 1 week ago yesterdae...i found out abt baby's heartbeat not beatin...n cried e whole nite to mi darlin...
exactly 1 week ago todae... i was lyin on e hospital bed at kk waitin for the op...with injections and all funni things done...
i miss how things were in e past...how i use to tell darlin when he's at work tt...baby n i love him...
now it can only be i love you..
